Just A Whisper…

Today was my 5th Cancer treatment.  While lying quietly in the dimly lit room I usually listen to soothing instrumentals from Eli & Kathy Hernandez, Nate Lawrence, David Nevue, or the inspirational singing of Bobbie Shoemake, Priscilla McGruder, Karen Harding…and others.  But today, I lay quietly waiting for the treatment to be over.   I have an hour or more with no interruptions!

And then it came…just a whisper.  Without any competition for my attention…I heard the whisper of His voice.  “Trust me…my will is in process.”  Assurance of his presence is always sweet and comforting.

As I lay there, a thought came to me just as quietly but urgently.  He assured me I had done nothing to my knowledge that promoted this cancer.  I had never done any of the main things that would cause this type of cancer.  I’ve never smoked, never drugs, never dyed my hair, etc.   I do know that our food is not pure and the additives, chemicals, and food coloring is in most of our food.  I do attempt to not eat processed food and eat WHOLE foods, organic if possible and finances allow.  I can eat less amounts of pure food and be more content than stuffing myself with all the processed foods the Markets have to offer.

This is something we’ve probably heard taught often on our journey…but this is my version.

I was reminded of the pattern for physical and spiritual Growth. From our very birth we are cared for.  Our needs are met and we are loved.   We are bathed, fed, and rocked, hugged, sung to and loved.  As a parent myself, I remember the birth of each one of my sons as if it were yesterday 001.jpgand the love I felt for each one of them.  Each one developed their own personality, looks and temperament.  They are individuals with their own likes and dislikes, dreams and goals in life. I love them unconditionally, they are my sons.


At first we are completely taken care of.  We are fed milk, either formula or mother’s milk.  As soon as our stomach will tolerate it we are given cereal to help strengthen us.

I Peter 2:2 (AMP)

 Like newborn babies you should crave (thirst for, earnestly desire) the pure (unadulterated) spiritual milk, that by it you may be nurtured and grow unto [completed] salvation,…

Read the above verse in the KJV, ESV, and TLB)

Later we are spoon fed baby food that is easily digested.  Our food is prepared for us but eventually we want to feed ourselves.  So, we grab the spoon and at first we make messes and the food is all over us.  But with persistence and consistency we soon get the spoon to our mouth without losing too much on the way there. We progress from the bland pureed food to food with substance. Food to chew on with those new teeth.  And growth begins.

Hebrews 5:13 (AMP)

For everyone who continues to feed on milk is obviously inexperienced and unskilled in the doctrine of righteousness (of conformity to the divine will in purpose, thought, and action), for he is a mere infant [not able to talk yet]!

We swiftly leave the infant and toddler stages behind.  Our curiosity of the world as seen through our eyes causes our environmental and intellectual development to rapidly begin.

As we GROW UP, we learn we have a choice of what we eat.  Our choice of food will determine our health, physically and spiritually.

I don’t know about you but occasionally I eat that Tootsie Roll or Snicker bar…and it’s not good for me.  I am supposed to be very careful of my sugar/carbohydrate intake.  Now a slip up once in a while probably won’t instantly be the death of  me…but long term it is devastating to my health.

We do that in our spiritual walk.   We slip up with our inconsistency of prayer, fasting, reading and hearing THE WORD preached and taught.  The consequences of our slip-up may not reflect immediately upon our spiritual health…but if continued will be devastating just as too many carbs does for me.

Hebrews 5:14 Amplified Bible (AMP)

14 But solid food is for full-grown men, for those whose senses and mental faculties are trained by practice to discriminate and distinguish between what is morally good and noble and what is evil and contrary either to divine or human law.

When I’ve had too many sweets/carbs I become sluggish, no energy, brain doesn’t function at the level it should.  I become easily agitated, irritable, anger is just on the surface ready to blow and I’m just not myself.   I even get very tired and sleepy….slumber is a big part of the effect eating the wrong food has on me.  Has anyone else ever experienced this? Now be honest!

If we are not consistent with our prayer-life, Bible reading & studying, and hearing the Word taught, I believe we experience the above mentioned maladies.  We can become sluggish, lack of zeal, easily irritated over the silliest things, anger surfaces easily and then slumber sets in… our minds and hearts are not functioning to the capacity that God has given us.   Can we all say “Oh me”?   We are not perfect, but we are striving toward perfection of being Christ-Like! We are not alone on this journey.

When we withdraw from being fed The Word…we are depleting our body of the nourishment it needs to spiritually survive.  When we withdraw from our personal relationship with God we become a hindrance to the body.  We’re just not ourselves and we’re not open to the moving of God when we are in this particular mode.   We become critical and overlook our own attitude and faults and blame others or the circumstances surrounding us. We avoid the mirror of our soul.

Hebrews 6:1-3Amplified Bible (AMP)

6 Therefore let us go on and get past the elementary stage in the teachings and doctrine of Christ (the Messiah), advancing steadily toward the completeness and perfection that belong to spiritual maturity. Let us not again be laying the foundation of repentance and abandonment of dead works (dead formalism) and of the faith [by which you turned] to God ,With teachings about purifying, the laying on of hands, the resurrection from the dead, and eternal judgment and punishment. [These are all matters of which you should have been fully aware long, long ago. ]If indeed God permits, we will [now] proceed [to advanced teaching]. 

When our spirits are broken…our hearts contrite…our minds stayed on Him then God can use us…work through us, because we willing in spirit to do his bidding.  Our eyes see, our ears hear, our hearts are malleable, sensitive and filled with his Spirit.  We are useable for His Glory.

Psalm 51:17

My sacrifice [the sacrifice acceptable] to God is a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart [broken down with sorrow for sin and humbly and thoroughly penitent], such, O God, You will not despise.

Perhaps, because of my age and the experiences of my life, these thoughts came to mind…but until the day of my “going home” I want to live for Him.  Birth is a wonderful beginning…but growing up is a process of willingness (the WANT TOO) and the process of time.  Maturity doesn’t necessarily come with age.

We never stop growing up in GOD!

Still growing up, still learning-


Blessings- Pam

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