Life is a Vapor

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It’s been almost 2-years since I’ve posted on this blog!

Life has taken me down a different road for about three years.  My Mother went to her heavenly home 3-years ago this coming July 1, 2017.  My Dad came to live with us and was not happy leaving Missouri, but he didn’t have a choice.  He could not take care of himself and his dementia was getting worse.  He was almost totally blind and couldn’t hear.  But his stubbornness came with him.  He was 24/7 care for us.  He did accept going to a PACE program for a few hours a day 3-4 days a week.  This gave Bud (my husband) some relief from caregiving.  He completely took over the physical care of my Dad without complaining. (I work M-F 8:45a – 5:00p to keep the home fires burning.)

 GOD has a way of working things out before you even anticipate them.

Bud retired from Erlanger Hospital in April of 2009 (not by choice, they had a big lay-off and since he was only there for 10-years and paid more for his experience, he was included in the lay-off).  While we struggled financially, little did we know that this would come as an advantage to us a few years later.  This made it possible for Bud to be here for my Dad.  Otherwise, he would have to go into a nursing home.  We did not want that and neither did he.

We had some rough times with his dementia but we survived them.   He had a heart attack that wasn’t diagnosed for several hours.  At first, everyone thought it was his gallbladder and were getting ready to schedule gallbladder surgery.  Then his labs came back!!  Heart Attack!  He stayed 4-days in the hospital and then was moved to Hospice care.  One of us was with him 24 hours a day.  He was never left alone. Everyone was so kind to us at both places.  I have no complaints.   Dad left this world  Sunday, February 5, 2017 1:15am.  He would have been 92 on the 25th of July this year.

It still seems unreal that both my parents are gone.  They were always there!  I still look in the rearview mirror expecting to see Dad’s face.   I still have their phone number on my phone.  It took me a long time before I didn’t think about calling my Mom.  I really didn’t have time to grieve my Mother’s death while taking care of Dad.  Now I grieve for both. Grief strikes at the strangest times.

I know this is a SEASON of Life, but one I don’t think we’re ever ready for.  When we’re young and raising our own children with our own commitments and responsibilities we don’t even let it enter our minds that LIFE is really just a vapor.

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Missing them!

Change is in the Air…

Whoa…it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged and not because I’m  empty of words…but simply for lack of time.  There’s a lot going on in my life currently and many changes in the near future, so I cherish every moment of quiet time I can flee away to.

We are welcoming my parents, who will both be 88-years old this coming July, once again into our home.   After 3-years we will again share our home with them.  Our lives and routine will again be restructured to fulfill a need.  While they do still ambulate well, they are both getting feeble.  Mom tires quickly, and Dad has slowed down considerably.  Also, the house in Missouri that they currently live in is needed for the owner’s daughter and family. 

Although Hubby/Pastor has retired from his secular job at the hospital, I still work full-time and will for a few more years as my health permits and the job is there for me.   Because I’m working, a lot of the responsibility will fall on dear hubby’s shoulders.

So today, Saturday, we are busy rearranging our home to accommodate my parents.  First, we are working on their room, removing the exercise equipment, and bringing in the other bed.  I purchased new sheets for their beds yesterday during my lunch break and would like new bedspreads.  We have removed carpets in places to prevent falls, etc. 

Bud has been busy getting the stair rails painted and back up…a job we had  procrastinated doing!   They do look nice…kind of a black antique-y finish. 

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One project out of the way…now on to the next.  I think we are moving the beds around and clearing out the closet in what will be their room.  I’ve still got the kitchen to reorganize.  We need to finish painting the kitchen too, but probably won’t get that done before they get here.

Here’s a photo of what will be the family photo wall above the sofa.  I’ve yet to insert our photos.  The silhouettes are of our three sons.

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I also have a photo wall to put back up in the hallway.  The photos will all be in black frames.  I have the frames, just another one of those things I’ve not had time to get back to.

Well, my break is over and now back to work!

Happy Saturday,

Pam

Monday’s Muse…

January 14, 2013 –

We are well on our way into the NEW YEAR!  I was looking at the calendar and counting the days until Spring!  Perhaps that was because I had read we (Southeastern Tennessee) were in for some COLD weather in the mid-teens, atypical for our area.Copy of Newspaper1020

While perusing the calendar it made me think about how swiftly life passes by!  Sometimes it seems like yesterday that my three little towheaded boys were seeing how much mischief they could get into before getting caught!  They had great imaginations!  This was back-in-the-days before all the video games, Wii, Xbox, movies, and all the miscellaneous electronics.  My boys played outside and improvised with whatever was available…they built things, rebuilt their bikes, painted their bikes, made ramps, tree houses, tunnels in the ground, played in the dirt, and on and on.  They came in at the end of the day with freckled, sunburned faces, with sweat-rings and dirty smudges.  I never knew what I’d find in their jeans pockets!

During the long days of summer they were outside from early morning to dusk or later!  I don’t think they were ever “bored”, really. 

Now I look at them and they are grown men who have ventured out into the world.  When I’m around them it still amazes me, that these handsome MEN are my cute little boys!

Copy of spiral-clock“Life goes on, Bud”.  These were Dad Childers last words to Bud knowing he would probably not see his son again.  Three short words filled with so much truth!  I think we need to muse about life occasionally, if nothing else, just to remind ourselves how precious it is and not to be taken for granted.  Life does go on…  

Just musing about many things today.  Thankful for STRENGTH to make it through whatever the day may hold and enough JOY to enjoy the wonder of each new day!  Waking with anticipation of the day ahead, and in wonder and awe of God’s love, compassion, mercy, grace, deliverance, and Power! Words are not enough to describe the emotions of awe and wonder of God.  I’m so blessed to have HIS Spirit living inside me…I am a living temple of God!

Blessed beyond measure,

Pam

 

FORTY-FOUR YEARS…

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 Where do the years go?  It seems like just yesterday that we exchanged those Wed Pix with With Parents 1967-jpgcovenant vows!  Vows to love, cherish, honor, …until death parts!

 

 

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This was our first non-professional Christmas card photo .

 

 

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Our engagement party.

 

 

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… now on to today…

 

Today, at PF Chang’s for our 44th Anniversary photo (4)dinner. We had been shopping (got a cover for my Kindle Touch that my boss gave me for Christmas).  We usually celebrate a day early because it’s too hectic on the 24th and places close early.

 

 

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I love green tea…this was very good, but I do like mine a bit stronger…however, this was pleasant.

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The Great Wall of Chocolate & Creamy Cheesecake.

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Before and After… yum… and just enough to satisfy without elevating our glucose level!!  I forgot to take photos of our meal Sad smile.  I had Sweet and Sour Chicken with brown rice and Bud had ???Lamb…forgot what his was called.  We had spring rolls (they make the best I’ve ever eaten) for appetizers!  I could go to just eat the spring rolls!  Smile 

Now home and ready to relax, read, snack, drink more coffee, read, snack…  take a nap, read some more… snack…

To friends and family… “Merry Christmas, and Have a wonderful time with family and friends”… missing my kids!

Pam

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Garden of the Gods

RendLakeFAMILY )9-2011 060Here are the promised photos from Garden of the Gods in So. Illinois.  I have also included this link to more photos that other’s have taken.  It is breathtaking-ly beautiful!!  ( )

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Jason conquering his fears!

 

 

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Gavin, Micah & Papa

 

 

 

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One of the trails

 

 

 

 

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Grandpa & his grandkids on one of the trails.

 

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Kailee & Tyler

 

                        

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Brian, Tina, & Chloe and Jason behind the tree (as usual).

 

 

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Cousins: Micah, Gavin & Chloe

 

 

 

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Gavin & Micah

 

 

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 Tim & Terri enjoying the day!

 

 

 

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Playing with Uncle & Pop Tim

 

 

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  Papa Bud (too close to the edge)

 

 

 

 

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Jason across the ravine from where I was taking the photo.

 

 

 

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Time with the GRANDS…

Grandsons Micah and Gavin have gone back home! Crying face  The house is quiet again (not that they were noisy).  We enjoyed our time with them.  I had to work but Grandpa Bud went with them to the Smokies from Thursday – Saturday late.  He had a wonderful time keeping the GRANDS entertained with his corny grandpa jokes.  Just ask our oldest grandson Brian about the “grandpa jokes”! 

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My handsome grandsons and son, relaxing at the cabin.

 

 

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Father & son at the top of the tower.

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Getting ready to tube down the river.  But first we’ve got to get Dad’s

blown up!!!Smokies 7-2011 037 Grandpa BUD did NOT go tubing.  He kept the home fires burning and watched out for them coming back down the river past the cabin!  He had to whistle at them or they’d have kept  floating on by!

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I think Marc had a hard time getting his tube aired up…

Just one of the quaint sights to see!

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A NEW friend finishing the uneaten breakfast…

 

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Overlook stops on the way to Klingman’s Dome.

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Dad and his boys! They are growing up way to fast.  Micah is almost as tall as me!!  Gavin looked like he had grown a foot since I last saw him!

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WAVE good bye!

Until another time…

 

 

I have hundreds of photos that Marc, Bud and Micah took … some beautiful scenery and I’ll save those for another blog.  Bud is anxious to take me there now… we’ll see.  I don’t think I’ll float down the river though!  That would be a sight or NOT!

Grandkids are God’s extreme blessings for grandparents! 

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Scribbles and more…

What a beautiful day and I am thoroughly enjoying it!  Yes, it’s cold and partly overcast, but I’m at home as I had an unplanned day off work, thanks to my employer! (I did not call in… I’ve worked almost 16 years at the same insurance agency… and I have not made a habit of calling in.  That’s not to say I’ve not had “sick” days, but I’ve missed very few days in all those years!).

Since this was an unplanned day off…I am having an unplanned day!SmileI am doing just the things I have been wanting to do.  I will do a few chores and start or work on a few projects…but otherwise, just enjoying this “unplanned day”.

I think everyone should have an unplanned day once in awhile.  It gives one time to “think” and not just “do”.  We must think and meditate in order to stay “in touch” with our LORD.  Sometimes we get so busy, especially during this time of the year… that we forget to stay in contact with the very one the season is supposed to be about.  I’m NOT chiding anyone, just a simple reminder not to let the commercialism become the focus of our time and finances. 

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Bud just brought me a bite of the buttermilk bread he just baked this morning.  We’ve been using our bread machine and haven’t bought a loaf of bread in ages.  This way, we know exactly what’s in it.  Bread 12-2010 004

With all the food scares and food product recalls lately, we have  become personally involved with our food intake!  We are trying to be careful and pay attention to the ingredients of the food we are eating.  I would love to go totally wholefood and organic…but cannot afford to buy everything organic right now. 

We are gradually switching over and as we are, we are discovering that the quality and wholeness of the food causes us to be satisfied without stuffing ourselves.  We became aware that we had elevated our energy levels, an added benefit! 

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The best combination for a mid-day snack.  Home baked buttermilk bread with lemon curd and strong brewed coffee.  Enjoy!

I have to limit myself (self-control)!

Bud’s friend John, brought a trailer full of oakBuds Misc Woodpile 11-2010 006 that he and Bud had split yesterday.  We are WARM and toasty!  Sure saves on the fuel bill!  I love the even warmth the wood stove gives to the house. Our heat pump hardly ever kicks on!  Even in this cold weather.     Woohoo!

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Love my wood pile!SmileThankful to John for providing the free wood.  He and Bud like to work together and they worked hard yesterday splitting the oak logs.  We are blessed beyond measure with God’s providing hand.

Saturday will be a cooking and baking day at our house.  Our churches Christmas Potluck is this Sunday at 1:30 pm with service following.  There will not be a Sunday morning service.  We are excited and looking forward to Sunday. 

Enough scribbles for now… rays of warm sunshine are filtering through my window, so back to my coffee and my book!     

Have a blessed weekend!

The Grandsons…

We’ve had a wonderful visit with our two youngest grandsons, Micah and Gavin.  They are our youngest son Marc and Shenyle’s boys.

This is our first time getting to keep them for a week and we have enjoyed every moment!  Papa has got to spend time getting to know them.  I took Friday off-work and we went to the IMAX 3-D and saw the WILD Misc July 2010 033OCEAN. 

  

 It was fun just watching Gavin’s expressions

as the sharks and dolphins came right up to his face. 

 

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Gavin getting his 3-D glasses ready and

Big Brother, Micah with his ready to SEE.

 

   

 

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  And Papa with his …double vision…

I’m carrying the camera, so NO PHOTOS of me!

 

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All is quiet except for the ooohs and aahs and

sometimes covering the eyes.

 

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This is the waiting area of the IMAX before the crowd assembled. 

The light through the glass globe is beautiful.

 

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This is better color.

 

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The grandsons with the TN aquarium in the background.

 

 

 

 

  

  

We’re at “Stickey Fingers”.  It was yummmmmm…

hadn’t been there in awhile.  The ribs were delicious! 

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 Papa Bud and Granny Pam with the grandsons, Micah and Gavin.

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The ending of a beautiful very HOT day in Chattanooga,TN

Their Mom and Dad will be here Saturday to take them away again!  It’s hard to believe Micah will be in 7th grade and Gavin in 2nd grade.  Time sails by! 

Ramblings…

Crowing RoosterCan you believe it’s the middle of July all ready?  This summer is zooming by!  We are continuing to try to do some much-needed work and updates on the house.  We are getting ready to totally redo my master bathroom with the exception of the tiled shower.  I purchased the vanity, mirror, light, and faucet almost 2-years ago.  The walls will be white tile part way up and then painted “honey butter yellow”.  Also purchased a new toilet recently and as soon as I clear out the bathroom, they can start the work.  I’m excited, but I always dread the mess made before the project is completed.

 Side note:  Sometimes our life is like that… we have all the elements and spiritual leadership to succeed in the journey we are on, but we have to make a mess (true repentance) before we can start the clean up and the rebuilding.   Then it takes steady, consistent attention to our choices in life to continue cleaning up the mess we’ve made of our lives.    God forgives us instantly, but we often reap what we’ve sown… but if our relationship with God has been strengthened by daily prayer, Bible reading/study, consistent church attendance (we must hear the Word preached), we will be overcomers in the end!  The mess will be cleaned up and the remodel will be awesome!  What a testimony!

 Got the gutters cleaned out (we were growing beautiful vines/trees) and cleared branches off the roof from the last windstorm.  We are surrounded by trees, so this is typical to see small twigs and branches on the roofs in this neighborhood.  I can’t wait (I think) until they start on the kitchen.  My kitchen has never been painted since we’ve lived here.  I’ve got the paint colors for the cabinets and walls and a new farm sink picked out.  Got the carpet pulled out of the upstairs guest room and will install either hardwood or oak laminate flooring in that room and the hallway.  We’ll do the other two upstairs bedrooms one at a time.   These are pay as you go projects, so nothing will be done quickly!  We have to do it the way we want to now, because it probably won’t ever get done again! 

On another note, Bud and I have been walking the nearby high school track early in the mornings.  We’d like to be out there by 6:00 am but it’s been closer to 6:30. We started with a mile and added a 1/4 mile each day.  We didn’t walk this morning, the humidity was too high and the temp was 80 degrees this morning at 6:00am.  But I think Saturday morning we’ll go walk the walking trail at Harrison Bay.  It feels good walking in the morning.  We can talk, or pray, or just enjoy each others company in silence.

****I woke up this morning missing my grandkids!  Sure would like to see them and their parents too!! 

Enough…rambling…  just thought I needed to blog since it’s been so long!  I’ve some notes from something I’ve been studying… but I need to piece them all together in my mind first, then I’ll post.

Enjoy the weekend!  Blessings to all.

Christmas 2009

Wow… 2010 is almost here! That always seemed so far away… in the distant future… but it’s fast approaching.  We had a quiet Christmas this year.  My parents, who now live with us, and me and hubby.  No kids or grandkids.  Here are a few photos:

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           Above: Christmas Table

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If I remember, Bud’s sister, Teresa made this for Mom and Dad Childers.

 

 

 

 

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Waiting for Dinner Time.

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Part of my Rooster/Chicken collection. I even found Rooster placemats that I could use for Christmas!!!

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Then it was “hit” the chairs.  Stuffed to the brim and then some… we had to “chill” awhile and enjoy the evening! 

 

      A Blessed NEW YEAR to all! 

 

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