Life Strikes Again…

Stress…Strain…Tension…Pressure…Worry…Heaviness…

That’s 2015 so far. Oh there have been moments, maybe a few hours, or even a day or two that were relatively stress-free, but then it starts all over again! I’ve read on other ministers/pastor’s wives blogs and sites and know that personally,  and my household are not the only ones going through this type of “attack”.

It’s not always our first inclination to “place it in God’s hands”. Worry -Todays Troubles & Peace

There are some of us who attempt to deal with a circumstance or situation first thinking we can handle it! God knowing all along that we will eventually come to him for guidance, but only after we’ve struggled with IT and come to the realization we can’t solve it our way! So, He patiently waits.

Then there are some things that occur and we realize from the beginning…we are not in control and cannot change or avoid the circumstance. We are not the Omnipotent One! We throw up our hands and submit…saying, “Here IT is God, it’s all yours.” Why do we do that? Because we’re made of flesh and blood…pure humanity in its rawest form. We do this over and over…

The only thing that saves us from complete self-destruction is being filled with His Spirit and knowing He is the comforter of our soul. We fall back on the one who loved us enough to give his life on the cross for us.

Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret—it only causes harm. (Psalm 37:8 NKJV)

Oh how true the above scripture is! Fretting causes great harm physically, mentally, and with our relationships. Even our spiritual relationship with God suffers because of worry and fretting.

Matthew 6:25-34 NKJV

[ Do Not Worry ] “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? …

You are my SAFE PLACEHow often have we read the above verses?  Many, many times, yet we still fret and worry.

I am trying…to remember this during my stressful moments.

EVEN if remnants of the yesterdays are still hovering like swirling black clouds getting ready to drop their cargo by the bucketful.  Each day is a NEW DAY,  a NEW Beginning,

The chorus we often sing :

I am Blessed, I am Blessed, every day that I live I am Blessed, when I wake up in the morning, when I lay my head to rest, I am Blessed, I am Blessed.

How true that chorus is…no matter what comes our way, what fiery darts are thrown, we have the shield of our salvation that protects us.

Our strength to face the unknown of each day comes from our personal relationship with our beloved, our comforter, our provider, our precious Saviour. The Unknowns will come, but I KNOW the ONE who KNOWS all and holds my future in His hands.

His Name is Jesus,

 Pam  (Heartwhispers)

Just a Dream…or?

I was awakened during the early morning hours by a dream…ever been there?  It wasn’t  a nightmare.  I didn’t wake up afraid but the dream was as vivid as if I were still dreaming.  Lying there I began to roll the footage through my mind again.  I won’t go into all the detail of the dream, but it reminded me of a dream I had several years ago.

Tclip_image002[4]he dream I had about 6-7 years ago was of my husband and I during one of our walks around Harrison Bay and as the day moved toward dusk, I began to see serpents along the trail…some would strike out and almost reach us, some would slither across the path in front and behind us, but never touching us.  At the time of my dream I wasn’t under any great pressures of life that I was aware of.  But our Awesome, Holy, and never failing God was warning me of a “strike” of satan in the future.  The old serpent struck, and attempted to strike out at my husband’s ministry.  Unsuccessfully, but hurting babes in the Lord who didn’t understand why someone would do that.  God prevailed!

Early this morning I had a similar dream, while not as dramatic as there was only ONE poisonous serpent involved.  I woke up realizing that the serpent was coiled and not in a striking position, but ready!  In my dream, I gently removed myself from the strike zone.  Another warning LORD?  I believe so!

1 Peter 5:8 reminds us:    Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

Observing through many years of walking in the truth…I have seen the LORD begin to move and then the old serpent sticks his ugly head with beady eyes into the mix.  It doesn’t take much for him to strike…an unkind word, a mistaken interpretation of words or actions, offenses though small build into bitterness…the old serpent knows how to do it!  When people began to seek a closer walk with God and desire to be revived, refreshed and have kindled the fire…the old serpent can’t resist…he slithers in and around…seeking the weakest and attempting to devour and destroy.  A pastor soon sees who has and is maturing and growing.

We must be very careful with our words, conversation and actions.  This is a testing time.

Ecclesiastes 10:11 tells us:  Surely the serpent will bite without enchantment; and a babbler is no better.

Psalm 140:3  tells us:  They have sharpened their tongues like a serpent; adders’ poison is under their lips. Selah.

We must, I must be very careful to intercede prayerfully and not be a hindrance to His Will keeping the desire for More of HIM and less of me!  Time is brief…our lifespan is God-given!  We don’t know the hour or the day our journey in this world will end.  I certainly don’t want to be a stumbling block or have strayed from the path called straight.

My HOPE for the future is to be with my Lord and Savior, Jesus the Christ.  He is the one I want to please and that He will “know” who I am and say “well done, thou good and faithful servant”.

His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.   (Matthew 25:21)

~ Prayerfully submitted,

Pam

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Dry…Thirsty…Drink the Living Water

“If you’re DRY then you probably need to CRY.”

I woke early Monday morning this past week with these words vividly printed on my mind and I was reading and re-reading them over and over again. My mind became full of words, phrases, and Scripture that needed to be compiled into some sense of order to satisfy my heart.

Lord i'm emptyTheir heart cried to the Lord.
    O wall of the daughter of Zion,
let tears stream down like a torrent
    day and night!
Give yourself no rest,
    your eyes no respite!

(Lamentations 2:18 ESV)

So here goes my feeble attempt to make sense of what I felt was the “nudging” of the Holy Ghost.

Psalm 18:6 tells us: In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.

I understand that all the cries or cried in the Bible does not always mean tears…but it does mean a desperate crying from the heart.

I searched for scriptures that had the word cry, cries, cried, tears and weep or weeping. It’s worth your while to take the time to look them up in a concordance and just read through them.

Everyone has their own manner of prayer… many do not cry tears, but still cry before God. I personally am a crier with tears. When I feel His presence, it is so awesome to me that after all these years, I still cannot stop the flow of tears. I have also discovered, that I do not cry about everything that occurs in my life. I attribute my tears as a gift from God. Tears refresh my soul. I can read His Word and as His Spirit flows through the Words I’m reading and connects with my spirit I become so full that my tears flow freely. I hope and pray I never lose the tears or the awe and reverence of God and His Word.

Now back to dryness. As I write, please understand that I have had times of dryness, so I speak from the experience. Did I leave God during those times? NO, I persevered through them. Did I need a large church or conference to remedy my dryness? NO, I continued to worship, yes, I said worship even though He felt so far away. Why? Because I knew that He wasn’t far away, but was calling me closer to Him. However, when the opportunity presented itself in a conference or large church, I did and do take full advantage of the praise time. But those services are not what will provide the day-to-day connection with God. It’s not the size of the church congregation that causes true worship.  It comes from our hearts!

May I say that a dry spell could be a time of testing? God wants to see how we are going to handle it. Will we walk away or trudge on through the barren desert searching for the Water? We have the choice of letting our spirit dry up and become dehydrated or seeking the Living Water that will refresh our souls.

Physical dehydration is horrible and can be painful. Dehydration often affects the internal organs. One can even have hallucinations. Dehydration that is not reversed in time  can quickly  bring DEATH.

Spiritual dehydration is also a painful malady and can cause the inner man to wither away. Just like physical dehydration is generally a slow subtle process until the body starts to break down and becomes weak, Spiritual dehydration occurs the same way…slow and subtle. The lack of hearing the Word causes the dehydration process to begin and we fail to turn our praise into true worship. Worship comes from knowing and connecting to the one we worship.  The adversary sees our lack of response to the Spirit and goes immediately to work to keep us from drinking the living water.

So, once we’ve diagnosed that dehydration is or has occurred what do we do to remedy it? Physically we must re-hydrate ourselves…we must drink water and restore the fluids in our body. If serious enough, we may even require Intravenous intervention. I’ve experienced this physical dehydration a couple of times in my life that required the IV’s. It’s not a pleasant experience. You do not feel like yourself, you think strange thoughts (hallucinations) and your body begins to shut down (very harmful to the kidneys). It also affects our appearance.

What is the Spiritual remedy? First, we must admit that we were responsible for the dehydration. It was our choice not to drink water and keep our body hydrated. Second, we must drink in the living water that will restore our soul and replenish the spiritual nutrients to our inner spiritual man. Third, it may require us to be more diligent and consistent in daily seeking His presence in repentance and worship. Fourth, we must realize it takes our effort to lift the cup of living water to our lips and drink that is what God is looking for. He will provide living water to those who are thirsty.

Personally, I have been a part of large congregations and small. I have found that neither one, large or small made me any drier than the other. Yes, I enjoyed praising and worshipping with music. Yes, I enjoyed being in a large group feeling the Spirit sweep over. But I have more often than not reaped the most when I forgot those around me and only concentrated on worshipping my God. Just me and God.

My private times, my quiet times with my God, have been the sustaining factor in my walk with God these past 54-years. I can always count on Him to be there. I may not always feel His presence, but I know He’s there!This is my desire

Usually, when I submit myself totally to praising and worshipping Him, forgetting about myself and my supposed needs is when I find Him to be the closest.  I can reach out and touch Him as He passes by.

I can almost hear Him whisper,

“My daughter, this is how it should be”.

 

He will draw near if we seek Him!  That’s a promise.

 

Whispers from my heart,

Pam

 

 

Change is in the Air…

Whoa…it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged and not because I’m  empty of words…but simply for lack of time.  There’s a lot going on in my life currently and many changes in the near future, so I cherish every moment of quiet time I can flee away to.

We are welcoming my parents, who will both be 88-years old this coming July, once again into our home.   After 3-years we will again share our home with them.  Our lives and routine will again be restructured to fulfill a need.  While they do still ambulate well, they are both getting feeble.  Mom tires quickly, and Dad has slowed down considerably.  Also, the house in Missouri that they currently live in is needed for the owner’s daughter and family. 

Although Hubby/Pastor has retired from his secular job at the hospital, I still work full-time and will for a few more years as my health permits and the job is there for me.   Because I’m working, a lot of the responsibility will fall on dear hubby’s shoulders.

So today, Saturday, we are busy rearranging our home to accommodate my parents.  First, we are working on their room, removing the exercise equipment, and bringing in the other bed.  I purchased new sheets for their beds yesterday during my lunch break and would like new bedspreads.  We have removed carpets in places to prevent falls, etc. 

Bud has been busy getting the stair rails painted and back up…a job we had  procrastinated doing!   They do look nice…kind of a black antique-y finish. 

Bud and Scrappy checking out the finished project.  I’m glad the rails are back up.DSCN5199DSCN5225

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One project out of the way…now on to the next.  I think we are moving the beds around and clearing out the closet in what will be their room.  I’ve still got the kitchen to reorganize.  We need to finish painting the kitchen too, but probably won’t get that done before they get here.

Here’s a photo of what will be the family photo wall above the sofa.  I’ve yet to insert our photos.  The silhouettes are of our three sons.

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I also have a photo wall to put back up in the hallway.  The photos will all be in black frames.  I have the frames, just another one of those things I’ve not had time to get back to.

Well, my break is over and now back to work!

Happy Saturday,

Pam

Habits

It takes a HABIT to BREAK a HABIT !

As I read this short sentence, I realized how much truth was packed into those words.  I know it’s TRUTH because I’ve experienced it!  We often struggle with making changes in our life.  The Closer you walk with God... 2013

If we do not fill the void left from eliminating a particular habit or routine from our life we revert back to the “old habit” or routine.  It’s too easy to fall back into the familiar even if we know it’s not beneficial to our growth.

It’s the same in our spiritual  lives…we cannot let the spaces in our heart and mind be filled with the “old”.  So, we endeavor to fill it with the New Way of life.  Some have a difficult battle with leaving the old behind and forging ahead with the New!  We don’t want to leave the familiar behind even if it’s bad for us!  Oftentimes, we take comfort in the familiar…it’s easy, we know what to expect from the old familiar habits and routines. 

Once we’ve fallen back into our old ways we often become disappointed in ourselves and may even feel worthless, helpless, and hopeless or despondent.

That’s a TRICK of the adversary!  Don’t let him fool you into believing his lies that you are incapable of changing!  God’s WORD tells us otherwise.  It also tells us that it can be a struggle to endure, maintain, and STAND FIRM!  WE CAN DO IT!

My heart breaks when I see believers falling back into the adversaries lap.  I’ve seen lives become so ensnared and tangled that one sometimes wonders if they will make it back.  I know, that I know…God is merciful, full of grace, and compassion.  He does understand and He wants to give you hope, worth, and purpose. 

God will not leave you…you leave God!  He waits with open arms and eyes filled with desire to see you run into His forgiving arms of love.  He came to earth…gave his only son, for who?  YOU! and me!

Don’t GIVE UP!  Give GOD the adoration, praise, and glory of your heart, mind, and soul!  He will give you all the strength you will need to fight the warfare of this world.  Preparation is the key!  

Put on the armor…prepare for the battle,

Pam

(I’m not sure why I have blogged this…but it was in my heart to write.)

Scattered thoughts…

 

Beautiful Weekend!

 

Wow, what a weekend, so thankful for the FREEDOM to enjoy it! 

I enjoyed sleeping in until 7:30 this morning!  Not my normal time to arise!

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 Coffee Time/Quiet time was so pleasant this morning, no rushing around… my thoughts free to roam without time restraints.

 

Old memories resurfaced of life when it was calmer, and living was or seemed to be simpler.  Remembering days of sitting on the porch or in the yard under a big tree sipping tea from Ball jars. This was at my paternal grandparent’s home in Modesto, CA.  I moved away when I was four, but those memories are still there just as clear as if it were yesterday!  Grandpa sitting in his rocking chair outside smoking his pipe and grandma barefoot with her apron on and her gray braid hanging down her back.  I think I got the “barefoot” thing from her. Eye rolling smile  I only wear shoes when necessary!  I’m sure my cousins memories are quite different than mine as they lived around her their whole life… but I have mine too, just not as many!

As the above title states… my thoughts this morning have imagebeen very scattered.

As the years have passed, I have begun to realize this life is truly a journey… we know the date it started (our births physical and spiritual) but we do not know the date it will  “cease”.  This journey we’re on will end someday, and that’s in God’s hands.  He alone knows our future. 

There has been so much preaching and teaching on “CHOICE” and imagehow choices we make in life determine what direction we choose and which road we travel!  We often don’t like to think that our choices are that important…but Oh friend, they are!  God loves us with compassion and mercy…He has offered us GRACE!  We have been chosen by Him… so why would we want to go back and live like we did before God’s Grace was bestowed upon us!  He loves us so much! Do we love Him in return?

imageMy heart is broken for those who are trying to live on the edge… one foot in the world and one foot in the church.  Afraid to fully step out in either direction because they “know” the Truth!  It will never leave you, and will always be there to remind you of the “road” you should be traveling. 

Sometimes we are so afraid to totally give it all  to God.  We want to hang on to the control knob… in doing this we are showing God how much we mistrust Him.  A relationship depends on TRUST! God desires an intimate relationship with each one of us.  He wants us to trust in His Word…follow in His footsteps…He desires our respect, adoration, love, praise, worship, and our desire to be with Him whenever He comes back for us.

It’s similar to when a husband or wife leaves in the morning for work or a trip and while they are gone we correspond, or have long conversations by phone, (Skype, email, and all the other techie stuff)… our longing to see them grows as time passes by… but we look forward to the day when He or she comes home and we can run into their arms and get the hug andimage closeness that only comes from truly loving each other.  I don’t know about you, but I race to open the door before He does!  I am so excited that he’s home and I want him to know that I am thrilled to see him!

God waits for us, He doesn’t chase us down and demand our love… He patiently waits… He’s waiting to throw a Welcome Home party for our return just like the Prodigal son’s Father did.  He longs to see us coming down that road toward “HOME”.  He’s waiting patiently! 

My heart aches with spiritual emotions and sometimes actual physical pain for those who have and who are turning their backs on God and His love for them…who are letting the “worldly way of life” slowly slip back into their lives.  This is a very serious choice.  God won’t make you love Him or live for Him.  My heart grieves imagefor those who seemingly have lost their way…Choosing the slippery road.  Sometimes I can only groan with the agony of the deception that is overtaking them! 

HE SET ME FREE

Verse One:
Once like a bird…in prison I dwelt….
No freedom from…my sorrow I felt….
But Jesus came and listened to me…….
And glory to God….he set me free…..

The Chorus:

He set me free…..yes…he set me free……
He broke the bonds….of prison for me…..
I’m glory…bound my Jesus to….see….
For glory to God….He set me free…..
Verse Two:

Now I am climbing….higher each day…
Darkness of night…has drifted away….
My feet are planted
….on higher ground….
And glory to God….I’m homeward bound…..
Verse Three:

Good bye to sin…and things that confound….
Naught of this world….shall turn me around….
Daily…I’m working…and I’m praying too….
And glory to God….I’m going through…..

The Chorus:

He set me free…..yes…he set me free……
He broke the bonds….of prison for me…..
I’m glory…bound my Jesus to….see….
For glory to God….He set me free…..

My mind is reeling this morning, going in several directions… thankfulness, prayerfulness, joyfulness, gratefulness, traveling down memory lane & remembering how is used to be… praying and claiming VICTORY for all who feel the enemy at their heels.  I never want to return to those chains and the prison of darkness. 

Love Lifted Me

  1. I was sinking deep in sin, far from the peaceful shore,
    Very deeply stained within, sinking to rise no more,
    But the Master of the sea heard my despairing cry,
    From the waters lifted me, now safe am I.
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      Love lifted me!
      Love lifted me!
      When nothing else could help,
      Love lifted me!
  2. All my heart to Him I give, ever to Him I’ll cling,
    In His blessed presence live, ever His praises sing,
    Love so mighty and so true, merits my soul’s best songs,
    Faithful, loving service, too, to Him belongs.
  3. Souls in danger, look above, Jesus completely saves,
    He will lift you by His love, out of the angry waves.
    He’s the Master of the sea, billows His will obey,
    He your Savior wants to be, be saved today.

Oh, how GREAT is HIS LOVE!

 

This is a day we honor those

who have fought for our right to

enjoy this FREEDOM

we cherish and appreciate. 

They have given us the freedom to be allowed to choose the choices we do.  I am blessed and thankful that I can assemble with fellow Believers and worship God in Spirit and Truth… I count it a privilege and do not take this freedom for granted.

But the time is coming—indeed it’s here now—when true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth.The Father is looking for those who will worship him that way.

God is a Spirit, so those who worship him must worship in spirit and in truth. (John 4:23-24 NLT)

And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.  (John 8:32 NLT)

So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.           (John 8:36 NLT)

Blessings…enjoy your freedom,

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Seconds from Eternity…

 

April has been a crazy & wild month, especially in the imageheartland and the south!  Homes and belongings flung through the air… lives lost, family members missing…despair, distress, and lack of finances for restoration.  So many are experiencing the above.  In all my 60-years I have never observed the catastrophes that are occurring seemingly on a regular basis in our world.  I realize the media helps to spread the news of disasters that we might never have heard about years ago, and they seem to be increasing in intensity.

Growing up in California I experienced the ferocity of the Santa Anna winds, some flooding, and wild fires, but I had never heard of a tornado in CALIFORNIA.  Earthquakes, YES, but never a tornado! Now…it seems no place is exempt!

My own parents live in Joplin, Missouri and lived only 7-blocks from the path of destruction. Mom called me while I was on my way home from church Sunday evening and said, “We’re okay, didn’t want you to be worrying.”  Now, I hadn’t heard any news yet and my first words were “You are OK from WHAT?”.  As soon as I arrived home I got online and discovered the tragedy that had struck Joplin earlier that evening.  How close I came to losing my parents!

Having just recently been through “the tornado” in our area on April 27th… I have listened to people’s stories and seen the distress on their faces (I work for a major insurance company).  Some seem to portray “no hope”… while others have the attitude, “God spared my life and I’ll just do the best I can to rebuild and move on with my life.” 

As a Believer I realize that our possessions are blessings given to us temporarily!  While I would hate to lose what we’ve worked a life-time to enjoy…I sincerely hope that I would not “give up” on God or Life if they were removed from me. 

I believe “Natural” disasters are often caused by our misuse of Earth’s provisions.  However, I believe they also influence us spiritually and God is observing how we handle them.  God is not judging the world…yet!

Don’t store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. 

Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal.

Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will be also.   (Matthew 6:10-21 TLB)

I don’t think God is demanding everyone to rid themselves of all their earthly possessions and wander this earth aimlessly.  But I do believe He wants us to be aware that what we consider necessities may not be! 

Yet true godliness with contentment is itself great wealth.

After all, we brought nothing with us when we came into the world, and we can’t take anything with us when we leave it.

So if we have enough food and clothing, let us be content.   (1 Timothy 6:6-8 TLB)

These tragic storms have brought back the reality of what is most important in “life”, our loved ones, family, friends, co-workers, and neighbors are what should be!  

Possessions can be replaced, people cannot! 

All the recent catastrophes brought to mind just how quickly our lives can be changed forever!  One can leave the house in the morning and never return.  We may lie down at night and take our last breath on this earth.  Life is just a wisp that evaporates in the wind.

How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow?  Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone.  (James 4:14 TLB)

Life is precious and should not be taken for granted!  It’s so easy to get into the everydayness of living and forget the very ONE who gave us the “breath of life”. 

I have deep sorrow for those who have lost loved ones and possessions and cannot begin to imagine what they are going through when a loved one is still missing!  My prayers are with them daily…

We have a HOPE that is eternal and not bound to this earth’s gravity… HE is coming back.  I want to run this race with patience and endurance to the very end.  I may not be “caught away” when He comes back for His Bride… my time may come before that…I want to be “Ready” whenever my time on this earth ends…found faithful until my last breath is breathedCopy of Heart Symbol 2008.

 

 

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A Good Report…

God is good all the time, all the time God is good…

Even as we journey through trials and hard places in life… Yes, God is STILL good!  He’s still in charge and still is Master of our lives.

This has been a tumultuous week for me.  Again, I had to endure the process of “cancer or cancer free”? 

Thursday I was scheduled for my quarterly Cystoscopy and biopsies.  Always, with the negative thought trying to invade my mind, “will they find invasive cancer this time” ??

  • 5:25 am  Up and getting Bud (husband) ready and off to work.
  • 6:25 am  Good Bye Kiss, Bud tells me, “I love you and you know I’ve been praying for you and will be thinking about you today.”  I observe the “worried” look behind his expression.   He’s going to work this morning and will be back around 11:30 am to take me to the hospital. 
  • 6:30 am  I sit in my recliner reading and trying to calm my mind.  Jesus and I have a wonderful conversation.  I am assured that all is in HIS HANDS and nothing is going to happen to me that is not His Will.  We will go through this together, Hand in Hand!
  • 8:00am  The craving for my morning coffee (I can do without the FOOD… just give me my coffee!!!) is strong… I have to get up and DO something to avoid the Caffeine URGE! 
  • 9:00 am  The URGE passes…
  • 10:45 am  Start to get my things ready… pack my little black bag.
  • 11:00 am  Shower, fix hair… and I’m ready to go when Bud gets here.
  • 11:30 am Bud’s home and changes clothes, grabs his Bible and a book.
  • 12:15 pm Dad, Mom, Bud and I have prayer and we’re off for the hospital’s Same Day Surgery Department.
  • 12:45 pm Nurse calls and says can I come in NOW… he’s got an early opening.  YES, I want this over with… “I’m in the parking lot now… will be up in 10 minutes.”

And thus the day goes on… I was back in the preliminary surgery area and the man next to me was having a complete Cystectomy done and the bed across from me was to have a Nephrectomy.  I am lying there calmly, basking in the love of Jesus and feeling his peace enfolding me with the comfort I need for this circumstance of life! There’s nothing like KNOWING JESUS!  Nothing!

I hate to be anesthetized!  I don’t like NOT being in control of my person!  But once given “the injection” … I quickly fall asleep. 

  • 3:30pm  I peek out from under my heavy eyelids… “Yes!!! …I’m still among the living.”

When I’m finally able to answer questions, the nurse asked… “Do you want something to drink?”  “YES…strong black coffee!”  And she brings it to me, “Freshly brewed.”  Ummm, so good!  Could this be a sin?  🙂   I sincerely hope not!

Finally, I’m back in the room and they are getting me ready to leave in an hour or so.  I’m not nauseated this time… wonderful!  I feel pretty good… Actually, I feel wonderful!  It’s GOOD NEWS… the surgeon did find a small spot of cancer… but feels he got it all and took the usual biopsies of different areas of the bladder.  He told Bud he felt all is well… and nothing to worry about!

  • 5:45 pm  HOME… home never looked so good to me!  Bud fixed a wonderful dinner of yellow squash, corn on the cob, carrots, peppers, cabbage, candied sweet potatoes, and Italian meatballs.  It really is a pleasing combination…    😀

Yes, God is good all the time.  Even had I received a BAD report… God would still have been there… and He still would have been GOOD!  He is ever present with us!

 

PS ~  A bit of humor:  While getting ready for surgery… the nurse told me that I would have to take off my hairpiece!   🙂    Bud quickly told her that was NOT a hairpiece.  You could see the look of disbelief in her eyes.  So, I took out the two clips holding my hair up and down it fell… she said… “Oh my gawd…that really is all yours.”     😀